Not hitting, no throwing, when he did get upset we offered two choices- dog bed or hammock to calm down. He did! This is what it can be like if every star in the universe was always 100% completely aligned.
Problem is this doesn't happen very often. This is that 5% of the time we see our son for his sweet, smiling, joyful little self. Pure self. It's the other 95% of the time that all things are just too difficult.
The world assaults him, his mind, his body and he still has yet how to handle it without anger, being physical. This is why I know our bubble world works. It always has- since he was little little. This isn't by accident.
Look what happened when I started to take Sarah to and from school. Nothing else. Simply one way to school, and one way home from school. It seems to simple to others. But when everything external bombards your body you just want to crawl out of your skin and escape. And that's what he tries to do.
This is the same little boy I was writing about just a few weeks ago- when things were so tough. Me having to lock myself in the bathroom for 45minutes until our behaviorist arrived. Me having to run out of the house because he's threatening me, over what? does it matter- does anything warrant this kind of response ever. Never!
But now look at where he is. His beautiful self, content with his existence. Wanting to engage, wanting to learn, wanting to be a little boy. So for anyone who wonders how we do this- this is how!
And this is why..... And this is a moment that I have in my memory to remind me why we do this! This is the little boy we are always trying to help, always trying to bring out into this world.
Rather than him retreating into that other world that is so dark, scary, and just like a closed box.
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