halloween begins at 3AM!!!!

Why is it every time there is some sort of SPECIAL DAY.... my kid always is up not even at the crack of dawn.

That I wouldn't mind-

but no, he's up at 3:00 in the morning!!!!

So not a very sleepful night and it's still Halloween Day!

This is a very important day in my kids book.

Big deal holiday!

So where to start.... well 3am, have little one home with croup, which means she's not so sick she can't have fun with her brother.

She's just coughing all over everything- which for the first time in a very very long time, he doesn't mind and doesn't tell her she's gross and to go away (because he doesn't want her germs). Hey, good moment!

It's once again a good Pokemon playing day between those two.

Again, another good moment.

He's on to costume idea, I think number 6. He say's he'll finally decide by 5:00pm.

Maybe he will :)

They carved pumpkins today- Ty did his with 4 different faces- and he scooped his own guts.

Another good moment.

Sarah carved her very first pumpkin. And she loves the guts. But now that she is 6 I let her use the carving tools- she loved feeling like a big kid.

Another good moment.

Then when Sarah seemed to be having some problems with her carving, Ty came over and offered her help.

She happily accepted and loved working on her pumpkin together.

Another good moment.

Oh and earlier this morning, Sarah needed to take a medicine that as she says "is so yucky".

And she refused and refused.... and then Ty came over and offered her support, encouragement and offered her at first 3 of his Pokemon cards, then upped it to 5 Pokemon cards.

Now, this had to have been one of the biggest moments I've seen in a very long time.

This was quite amazing and quite moving.

So with this amazing full of great moments day, I still realize it's Halloween.

And wonder what will the evening time bring?

Trick or treating, yes... and is usually a very interesting experience. Put it this way, we don't go very far and he usually calls it quiting time very early on- it's not about getting more candy- it's usually about now it's getting dark.

Oh and yes we are the one's that are out trick or treating before it's even dark.

So no idea what this year will bring.

For us, after trick or treating the little block we do, what is hard on nights like this is the routine of his potty time.

He's so rigid at what time he will cooperatively go on, but nights like this really throw things off.

Luckily he is taking a nap right now as we speak, and especially since he was up so early, that is a good thing.

It may just get us through the rest of the day without too much distress, just maybe!?

But as our days recently have been quite full of good moments, there are still hard moments, just so many darn good moments...

will this all end tonight? Will this be the end of our good run?

Will we wake up early no doubt tomorrow morning and have a different kid looking at us?

Will he become too dysregulated with all this Halloween stuff that he won't be able to recover and move past all the sensory overload that will occur?

Will he regress back to challenging behaviors, aggression, property destruction, and complete disorganization in his body and soul that it causes him to spiral back down the dark tunnel we just seemed to have climbed out of?

Well, no idea, I pray and hope we don't, that he doesn't, and that he is able to stay in control of his body and organize himself enough to get through all this experience and wake up tomorrow morning having felt rested, happy, and regulated enough to stay in control of his body and thoughts and be the kid that we know he truly is.

The kid that we have been able to see the past few weeks, the kid that has been so happy, engaging, funny, joyful, and full of life.

The kid that offered his little sister 5 Pokemon cards if she took her medicine when she was scared.

The kid that smiles a lot more than being angry and just sad.

My kid..... in his true self!