sucks!
It's been high
and it's been low
and then it's been lower!
The minute things seemed to have been turned around
boom
he's exploding again
his mood is all over the place
he has no idea what he wants,/p>
but is angry we don't know what he wants
so today- just sucks!
Quite honestly, I'm so tired of the explosions- I"m on the receiving end and he has no idea his own strength
I do, it HURTS!
So, feeling sad- feeling frustrated, feeling confused, feeling a lot of feelings!
ahhh I need a new day, a new sunrise, a new 24 hour period to get myself in check so that I can then better help him get in check
this is the vicious cycle of Autism meltdowns- Mood disorder, ADHD, PTSD
whatever the cause
the vicious cycle of uncontrollable behavior, uncontrollable emotions, uncontrollable everything
and as the parent- trying- desperately trying our damnedest to get a grip, get control, help everyone lost in the cycle to reach solid ground once again!
But it is really hard sometimes!
Just really hard..... and this cycle, happening these past few days, going on right now
is hard to get a grip on
and is taking hold of me!
Breathe- deep breathes,
I will just breathe at this moment! I will breathe
I will feel the depths of my soul touch solid ground
and then reach in and stop this cycle
This cycle is just a cycle
It will end
It will move on!
It will be forgotten.
Just breathe!
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