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My Paradise in a Bubble: His thoughts took over

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

His thoughts took over

Day started at 5:20AM with Sarah having bad cramping and needing to sit on the potty for about 45minutes (she has her own pretty touch bowel issues, and we are trying something because it's gotten so bad for her :( this cramping is not unusual, and it's just to different degrees)

and I felt her skin, she felt very very warm,

she felt feverish

and Megan just had a strange fever thing on monday, for about 12 hours- she woke up the next morning fine, but had a fever of 101 and nothing else.

Well, took Sarah's temp and it's 101

ugh... okay, no big deal, no other symptoms, but she's upset about the cramping and remember this is at 5:20AM

I get her set up, she usually likes to go on an ipad while on the potty and I really wanted to go back to bed

but she needed me to rub her tummy, sometimes that helps

Fast forward a bit in to the morning, Megan is off to theatre camp for a few hours (so great she can get herself there)

and Ty had been playing with neighbor friend, and it went from basketball to nerf guns

now this usually doesn't end well

in fact, we have a very strict rule, no nerf wars..... it ends the same way EVERYTIME!

behaviors, hitting, obsessed over it

so I had told him he could do targets with the nerf guns but no nerf wars...

there is a big difference to how he responds- it gives more of a focus compared to running like a chicken with its head cut off...

and guess what he still started to play nerf wars........ and yep everything blew up.. and he even tried to tell me that he promises to not have a behavior (as if he can stay in control of himself- I WISH)

and long story short- yep, I have scratches on me, I was kicked and it all went down hill from that point.....

over what???

Nerf WARS..... this is why we don't do it... he has never been able to do that

with friends especially.... his mind just begins to spiral...

and what sucks more is he had been doing SO WELL!!!

we really have had a good little run of minimal behaviors up until this morning over what I knew was already a bad idea the minute he was talking about it! UGH

and then in the middle of "having to help control him"

Sarah gets another bad cramp and feels like she's going to vomit (that happens a lot, because things are either going to go out one way, or force things out the other way

it's usually just a feeling she gets (so far anyway)

but I don't take it lightly- so I get her set up on the potty, barf tray just in case (that's how frequent it is, we keep it in the bathroom )

and she is still on the potty, but in less pain now, which is good

Ty finally chilled and is doing something with a box, dogs, and some training or something

I don't want to turn around and distract him because he has finally let go for now of the obsessed though of nerf wars and is onto something different

but what sucks is , now he just cannot go out and play with his friend today.. the entire cycle will start all over

and when he becomes more dysregulated like that, the more he is oppositional and jumps into behaviors

it's such a crappy cycle once it starts

ugh...

so lots of attention and focus to keep him occupied and distracted from those thoughts (it's literally keeping him away from his own mind...... when he can't control his mind, it gets him in trouble, and it becomes a very dangerous cycle

but trust me, it's so not easy to keep him constantly distracted from himself

esp when I have one not feeling well today

these can be some tough days... but it's been worse and we always got through those!

well sort of ;) and just had a short break from this post because yep

his thoughts got the best of him and water is now everywhere, garbage can lid thrown and now broken

shoes were flying, and anything else he could find

ugh... and worse is I know at this point he is hungry (he hasn't eaten yet today, which is so unusual- it's usually it's own obsessed routine first thing in the morning)

and he is also tired, he had not yet napped this morning, as he always does

really not much different than a cranky tired, hungry 2 years old

but he's 10 and he's much stronger now

and here is a picture I just took of how it all ended:

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